Have you ever said something to someone.. thinking you are in the right.. you are totally certain your message will convey just what you are thinking and feeling.. You read it and re read it over and over.. making sure you are clean.. and concise.. You put love into the message too.. just so it is not seen as a horrible attack.. You hit send... You wait for the response.. and then you see the reaction.. It went way wrong.. and then you think.. OMG.. what have I done?

I swear.. bad baggage.. and misguided intentions.. will get ya every time.. haha.. Silly Wendy!

There are times like this.. where I feel I am best enjoyed sparingly..

I could hear them before I saw them.. chirping and chirping.. I would try to get out of my balcony door as quiet as possible so I could see where the babies were.. Each time I would step out.. the parents would fly away.. I spent days trying to catch a glimpse of them..

Just last fall a pair had taken to my balcony of stuff.. and created their own life.. two.. I assumed were a boy and a girl. The girl had these white tipped wings.. and she looked so pretty when she was sitting with her back to me.. Her brother.. he was beautiful all on his own too.. He was black with speckled white throughout him.. They were on the balcony for about a month..

I got to watch them grow up through my window.. their home was right outside the end of the balcony window.. so the door never messed with them when I would open it..
It was so cool watching the body growth.. and watching the feathers grow in.. Watching them get older and eventually.. when they flew away.. I gasped.. I was a proud mama at that moment too.. Could not believe how fast that happened..

When they were finally done with the nesting area.. It was time for clean up.. I had to throw away everything that they were using.. But it was worth it.. watching that was something I wont ever forget.. Maybe there are others out there who have watched baby birds grow from just after being hatched till they fly away.. but I had never seen anything like it before..

I did not want more babies on the balcony tho.. So I have done everything I could to help avoid it from happening again.. Sadly.. the next spot a couple of them decided on.. was on the bottom floor yard.. the yard with two young children..

I finally saw them yesterday.. almost fully grown.. would need about another week to mature to when they can fly away.. That is how I spotted them.. I heard the unmistakable sound of wings flapping.. I looked over the railing.. and saw a bird with some fuzz still on his head.. trying his hardest to fly up..

I watched them for a while.. wishing that they had found any other place to nest then this danger yard.. obviously it wasn't that bad as they had gone mostly undetected till now.. But I still wished them more peace..

Today.. I heard one of the kids around the place in the yard where I knew the babies were.. and sure enough the kid was standing over one of the babies, had him cornered.. I told him he should not be bugging the baby.. So the kid stopped..

Then about an hour later.. I heard commotion around where the nest was.. This time when I came out.. I was horrified.. There was a grown man.. holding the bird.. The birds parents above on the third story balcony.. just staring at this man.. who is touching this bird all over..

I read that if you disturb the nest.. or touch the babies.. the parents will abandon the baby.. Which makes me very sad.. I mentioned this to the man.. he ignored me.. So.. now I am wondering how this baby is going to be.. I want to make toast and turn it into crumbs.. and sprinkle it down in front of where the nest area is.. ha..

Idk.. I just wish that people would maybe look things up about nature and wildlife, before they intervein.

This is to conclude my "across the street" three part story.. First part named: Straight on Looking. Second part named: Starts to rain.


In this post.. you can choose to have ending A.. or ending B.




ENDING A:

I saw you again today.. still looking as beautiful as ever. I found myself lost into fantasy land.. thinking of all the things we could do together.. We could just even go for a walk..

I figured I missed you again as you were walking away.. but this time.. you crossed the street.

Holy crap I kept repeating in my head.. each step closer I could feel my heart pound all over me.. keep it cool Wendy.. keep it cool..

You opened your mouth and said.. Hi.. I smiled at you and said hi back.. so far so good I'm thinking..

You asked if I had the time.. I told you it was just after 3 pm.. You thanked me.. Then you asked if I wanted to go for a walk.. You said that had noticed me the past few weeks.. just staring.. So you felt it was time to come meet the lady who seems rather interested in him.

I laughed and mentioned that I thought you were quite a good looking man.. You thanked me.. and said again.. walk?

We started walking down the street.. same direction you would always go.. The conversation was flowing easily.. We talked about everything you.. We must have spent 20 min together.

As each step went on.. I kept thinking.. It seems we have nothing in common. He is a dog person and hates cats.. He only eats vegan.. He feels that writers and creative people are wasting their time.. he has extremely bad breath.. and he was a fan of Donald Trump.

I was wondering how fast I could stop this interaction.. I had to end our walk.. Once we got to the end of the next block.. I thanked him for crossing the street today.. letting me get to know him and all.. I wished him a great rest of his day.. I then fled back towards my office building.

I believe that the cement on the other side of that street was not greener.. ha




ENDING B


It was the normal time for me to resume my staring at you.. so FN beautiful.. I do wish staring at you was a longer part of my day..

I start to fantasize what we would do if you just crossed the street.. I think we could get up to so much mischief..

I start to walk along my side of the street.. keeping up the pace you are.. I sneak glances of you as we are both traveling along.. You on one side.. me on the other.

I imagine what our conversations would be about.. you taking about work.. and how you want a nice home in the countryside.. Maybe even a white picket fence..

We are about to cross 5th street.. I stare at you as we wait for the light to change.. it is almost like you are staring right back.. This is when I feel it is my chance..

So I smile back at you.. the walk light appears.. and you don't move.. so I don't either.. I just keep staring at you.. smiling.. for a whole light change.. Then the crosswalk that connects us.. changes. Is it time for us to finally cross the street towards each other?

I am mirroring you.. just staying in one spot.. I can feel my heart beat faster and faster.. I wonder what you are doing.. your smile is getting bigger and bigger.. idk what is happening.. but I am loving this chemistry we are exuding right now..

The walk light starts to blink don't walk.. I go to take a step to cross.. this is too good to be true for me right now.. I take one step towards the edge of the cement.. it is now or never I think . This light is going to change.

Then.. it happens.. the thing I have been curious about for the past forever.. finally happens.. You take two steps forward.. smile still growing on your face..

You open up your arms.. and in walks a beautiful woman.. she just finished crossing the street.. and stepped into give you a hug.. I watched as the reunion continued.. I couldn't move even if I wanted to..

I watched you and your Mrs walk down the street, holding hands.. laughing at each others stories of the day..

Once you were out of sight.. I started back the way I came.. thinking of all that time I was staring at you.. I didn't catch you were wearing a ring.. dam I thought.. a taken man.. bummer!

I was almost back to outside my office building.. when this fantastic smelling man was heading inside.. he held the door open for me.. Then we walked and rode the elevator together.. we chatted briefly.. he stepped off on the second floor.. and said he was at office suite 203.. I should come by sometime..

As the elevator doors closed bringing me to my 6th level.. I felt it was a pretty great day.




Thanks for joining me in my first choose your own adventure story.. I hope to create many more.. but maybe more in the erotic field.. hehe

I apologize for the bad editing with the playlist.. I did not listen to the same song twice.. ha

I saw you yesterday.. just standing there.. looking all beautiful and such.. it's almost like you don't know just how lovely you look..

I wanted to cross the street and just say hello.. I didn't want this fantasy I have of you to end. I just stood there.. wishing and hoping that if I ever did cross that street.. you would be open to me..

My bravery seems to leave me. As soon as I think of not being able to have these feelings about you anymore.. I feel my smile leave my eyes..

Maybe you should be too good to be true.. and maybe it's best if I just stay on my side of the street.

You are long gone by now.. and I keep standing there as it starts to rain.

I was thinking about you the other day.. remembering when we would play that Stroke Stop game.. I loved playing that with you..

You would lay there.. naked.. waiting for my instruction.. aching to reach out and touch me.. or your growing cock.. I would make you wait for as long as I could stand it..

Once we got started.. you would stroke for me.. slowly at first.. and then you would go really fast.. until I said stop..

You would let go of your cock.. and let it just stand on its own.. I wanted to just lean down and swallow you whole.. I remember it made my mouth water..

I would say stroke again.. and this time I would tell you how I wanted to see you only stroking the top of your cock.. I wanted your head to feel some rubbing..

You started to get carried away.. so I told you to stop.. you almost didn't stop.. I could see your dick twitching .. aching to be used again.. aching to be sat on..

I asked you to stroke slowly again.. from base to tip and back down again.. nice and slow.. it was hot as fuck.. I loved watching you stroke that beautiful cock of yours..

I let this slow stroking go on so long you told me you were close to cumming.. I quickly told you to stop.. that's when your dick started twitching so much a lot of pre-cum oozed out the tip.. I couldn't help myself.. I bent over and licked the tip like a lollipop..

I then got so carried away I placed my whole mouth on your throbbing cock.. and sucked and sucked.. you kept saying.. I'm going to cum.. I am so close..

I just kept sucking.. wanting your orgasm so bad.. Just as you were about to explode.. you placed your hands on my head.. and blew down my throat..

I could feel you jolt and jerk around as your dick became very sensitive.. I wouldn't let it go from my mouth.. knowing you came in me.. made me very horny.. I didn't want to let your cock go..

All I wanted to do was get you hard again so I could fuck you as hard as possible. Mmmm you were so tasty too.

Maybe we should do that again soon?

I hesitated for just a moment before I placed my finger tips on your skin.. Once I made contact I could feel the energy passing through.. I wanted you right then and there..

I traced my index finger all along your back to the other shoulder.. Watching it glide along.. wishing it was my lips.. I knew I needed to be patient..

The song that had just come on, was one of my favorites. I let the music guide me.. Placing my two hands on your naked back, I moved all over. Mixing light touch with passion filled deeper touches..

I could feel you relax then tense up when I moved again.. I pressed my bare breasts against your back.. letting my hands roam your chest.. You felt so warm. I started to lay some kisses on you.. gentle delicate kisses..

I let my hands roam down your torso.. up and down your thighs.. I could see I was exciting you.. I took your cock in my hand and started to gently stroke.. Going from base to tip and back down again. I could feel you getting harder as you strained getting into a different position..

I stroked a little harder and faster.. feeling the blood throb your head.. I reached around with my other hand and gently held your sac.. kissing your back still I stroked.. faster and faster.. I could see the tip getting wet..

You made such delicious noises as I kept stroking.. You started to thrust in time with my stroking.. making you harder and harder.. Your cock was so ready to burst.. I gently squeezed your sac as you told me you needed to cum..

I made sure I could watch it shoot out and said.. "you have permission" After a few more strokes and thrusts you shot your orgasm out of your hot cock..

I watched it all cum out.. getting aroused at the sight, I gave your dick one more hand hug and let it go.. "Mmmm good cock" I said as I moved away from you..

I stayed with you for a few minutes, making sure you are feeling good.. Seeing that you were comfortable..

I started caressing you wherever my fingers wanted to go.. I leaned in to give you a kiss.. a nice tender one.. I then walked to the door..

looking back, my eyes traveled up your body.. admiring you.. Starting at your feet and legs.. I wasted no time getting to your beautiful cock.. not as hard anymore.. but still just as mouth watering... Made me want you again.

I saw your torso and pretty face.. then your arms.. lovingly restrained above your head.. I smiled at you and before I closed the door I said.. "see you soon."

I see you there.. just standing.. I can feel myself getting excited.. I feel the throbbing start.. I want to touch you all over.. let my lips explore your whole body.. You have turned me on many times before.. my body remembers.. I want you.. but I stay on my side of the street.. I watch you walk.. thinking how am I ever going to get anything else done today.. my heart starts to pick up pace.. Will I follow you.. or wait till tomorrow when I know, I will see you standing there again.
I blink.. and my opportunity has passed me by.. You are too far away.. I close my eyes and remember the other times when I was closer.. I can feel a throbbing within me start to go away.. maybe tomorrow I will be brave.

This is the Colbert Questionnaire.. what are your answers?


Best sandwich?

What's one thing you own that you really should throw out?

What is the scariest animal?

Apples or oranges?

Have you ever asked someone for their autograph?

What do you think happens when we die?

Favorite action movie?

Favorite smell?

Least favorite smell?

Exercise: worth it?

Flat or sparkling?

Most used app on your phone?

You get one song to listen to for the rest of your life: what is it?

What number am I thinking of?

Describe the rest of your life in 5 words?



My answers are:

Best sandwich? BLT

What's one thing you own that you really should throw out? Stretched out comfy pants

What is the scariest animal? A moose

Apples or oranges? Apples

Have you ever asked someone for their autograph? I have not.. I always feel I'm intruding

What do you think happens when we die? This is a great question! I have many thoughts on this topic..

I think we have our judgement where we see all that we have done.. then I believe we go through life in review where we get to see how we impacted everyone around us.. we get to feel what they felt as we interacted with them.. Then.. we are given tasks to help and guide the living.. I feel when you think of your loved one who has passed away.. they are with you.. they leave once they are called by someone else.. so they may not be with you long.. but they come each time you think of them.

Favorite action movie? The accountant

Favorite smell? Mary Jane

Least favorite smell? Crap

Exercise: worth it? Absolutely!!

Flat or sparkling? Flat

Most used app on your phone? Libby it's a audio book app

You get one song to listen to for the rest of your life: what is it? Ain't got time by The Gaff

What number am I thinking of? 3

Describe the rest of your life in 5 words?
Adventure, love, friendships, hugs, and pain.

I guess now I'm known.. haha

Well.. my kidlet turns 18 this year.. Yay.. ha.. I definitely have some empty nest feelings.. But we have been actively planning for this, for the past 7 years.

I am still disabled and unable to make more than what the government kindly gives me each month.. I lose a lot of money each month due to not having a dependent anymore.. so.. I am having to give up my apartment..

The housing crisis all over the place makes it hard to find another apartment.. plus.. no one else will rent to me when they have other people, who make loads more money than I..

So.. I seem to get my long ago wish.. and I'm moving into a tiny home.. which is also a panel van.. ha..

I will be spending time converting it into a nice camper home.. I will be in it until at least next October. I do have access to my dad's garage.. so I can pull the van in there when it is too cold for my furnace.

I plan to build the interior all my self.. should be fun! I have a dead line for next May.. I want to get a seasonal camp site at my favorite campground. It should be super fun.. it is close enough to the city I live in so I can still be close to friends and family.. plus I would invite everyone to come for free camping.

My son is going to his step mother's house.. she has loads of room and would love to spend time with him.. I am grateful for her still stepping up even after her and my son's dad split up.

So.. life is going to be drastically different in just under three months. I am both excited and terrified. Ha. I am told this is normal feelings for such a lifestyle change.

I plan to do way more exercising as I will be so bored being in the van all day.. there is a lot of KM's (miles) of city pathways that I have a goal to walk on every inch of them.. I also have a big zoo.. and some other touristy places that I would not mind spending the next year, exploring.

It has been years since I took any photos of myself.. I did get a lot bigger so me not wanting to share that.. seems to be part of the reason why I stayed away so long..

Other reasons have to do with my mindset.. I was overwhelmed by the selfish men who would ask me to talk dirty to them.. and would stop talking to me as soon as they were able to jerk off.. I don't dirty talk.. but I am very open with my answers.. some.men can ask questions and get off by my answers.. which is fine with me.. except they always leave right after.. no after care at all.. such a shame! Made me feel bad!

Another reason was, COVID was traumatizing for me.. I was too scared and retreated into myself.. I feel absolutely horrible for all the friends I left.. I should have at least let you all know I was going.. The problem with that was it was not at the time intentional.. I just left.. and then as the days went by.. I got more and more anxious.. I didn't want to burden anyone with my fears.. it got easier to be away.. Once again.. I apologize to anyone and everyone who I worried by being away. Hugs!!!

So.. Why I came back now is.. I am going to need some companions for this next adventure.. This community has always been a place of ego bosting for me.. and there are so many of you who I can chat with. I am wanting to build up my village.. people who can help me pass the time.. People who are not mean and cruel.. People who make me feel like I matter. That is here at NN!

Things have changed for sure.. but the bones of the site are still alive and kicking..

I thank you for your time and I send you about a million hugs!