Cause technically, it isn't Valentine's Day yet...


For some reason this song just popped into my head. Maybe cause loving someone has to do with all the ordinary, day-to-day stuff. My brothers (in my adopted family) had their own version of this song.

Got sex on the brain. More than I usually do. (Well, it has been a while.) And me, being the procrastinator that I am, haven't ordered my present yet. But I think I have a monster migraine coming on...plus "Hercules: The Legendary Journeys" is on.

Everyone should have someone who makes them feel like they're the only one...

When I was stationed in South Korea, I was lucky to be in Seoul. I never loved a city so much. The shopping, the food, the people, the nightlife. Most nights out were spent in Itaewon, one of the red light districts. My absolute favorite places to frequent were The Heavy Metal Club, Polly's Kettle House (Polly named a drink after me), and the MTV Club (dozens of tvs playing. yep, videos) and the one place that made dukboki (very spicy Korean rice cake.) Polly's is located on the notorious "Hooker Hill" in Itaewon...I always stopped to say hi to the working girls. I always felt badly for them, seeing as how most of them were paying off money their parents borrowed. I know a lot of things have changed since I was there, but I'd still love to visit.

I'm still moody. I know it will pass, it doesn't usually last this long. (Medication can be a wonderful thing.) Well, if I can joke about it, I must be coming out of it. That's not to say my feelings don't still hurt. Just some days are better than others.

I'm ignoring someone, but I have good reason. Even if I just wanted to hook-up, I'm not going to hook-up with someone who's blown me off before. And I'm not interested in sex with him anyway, so it doesn't matter. I just wish he'd stop texting me. I mean jeez, he can't even bother with a phone call or any gesture to show he's contrite...not that I want him to call. I don't. Some day, some man will get me and understand there's way more to me than sex. And also, that just because I'm laid-back, doesn't mean they don't have to put in any effort.

Anyway. I"m almost done with my choker. (Mostly I have to figure out how to tie off the transite. That is some frustrating stuff to work with. And hope I made it long enough.) And I discovered the grocery store is an excellent place to flirt. Not just cause I can see better, either.

Bed is where I'd like to be right now. Unfortunately, I have laundery to do.

I love this song.


I like how Jared Leto sings this better, and not just cause he has such pretty eyes. (Lzzy Hale has some pretty eyes, too.)

Closure. It doesn't always come in the package we'd like. It's hard when we feel there are answers we could do with, but the only thing we're getting is silence. No one likes being ignored. Maybe that other person thinks it's easier, but the only person it's easier for is the one who's doing the ignoring. The person being ignored is feeling more hurt and confused than if someone would just say something. Because even if you tell yourself a bazillion times that it's their issue, and not because of you, you still wonder what you did or said or didn't do that has this person disliking you-or even hating you-so much that they act like they don't even know you. I'm not talking about a one night stand, or someone you went on a couple dates with. Or when someone keeps displaying behaviors that you've explicitly told them are unacceptable. I'm just not understanding how someone (that knows I have strong feelings for them) can make out with me one night, call me all kinds of honey and sweetie the next day, and two weeks later make a point of telling me they hardly ever talk to me and now act as if I don't exist. A simple "that other night was a mistake" would of been so much kinder. Instead of leaving me to draw my own conclusions cause when I have to do that, they're never pretty.

I've been rather agitated the last couple of days. I need to find something (not someone) to distract me. Even if it's just a couple hours. Cause I know this feeling will (eventually) go.

What a hottie. And those eyes!


I like this one better than the original. He could sing anything and I'd listen.

Well, happy this stuff is all sorted out. I love this video. Makes me want to go blow...bubbles.