Really excited for this weekend. Dressing up for Halloween tomorrow, then it's my birthday. The kids make dinner for me...I wanted jambalaya but my oldest says she doesn't know how to make it so I think I'm going with spinach fettuccine alfredo with chicken. Although seeing eggplant at the grocery kinda made me hungry for eggplant parmesan. I told her (my oldest) that I want to dress up for my birthday cause I haven't done that in a long time. (Been wearing shorts or jeans, well, not the shorts lately.) Then I showed her my leather skirt. I was just teasing her, though. Cause I don't really consider that dressing up. I haven't decided what I'm giving myself this year, either. I've been too busy (between chores and trying to solve computer issues) to really think about it. Or to spend too much time thinking about anything else. Like sex. I mean, I have the house to myself for almost the entire day tomorrow, but I'm thinking about hiking (cause I want to) and shopping (cause I have to.) And finding some time in there to get some writing done. Keeping myself physically busy is a good thing except for when it comes to writing.

So very tired, all those hours trying to fix whatever the issue is with my computer/internet. Cause I don't like making phone calls and stubborn.

I don't know what happened with that pic in my previous blog; I copied the image url they had. Probably I wasn't paying enough attention to what I was doing. I'm trying a different site; seems a bit easier to use/upload to.

Anyway, I had a fabulous weekend. Although I had the misfortune of seeing an ex I didn't want to see. I'm confused as it made me a bit panicky and yeah, I guess there were butterflies but I'm pretty sure I intensely dislike him after the last time I spoke to him. I ignored him, of course. But I was so relieved I was talking to a friend who happens to be young and quite a cutie. Nothing going on there; even if he wasn't too young, I don't possess the right parts. I even went out by myself for a little bit Saturday.

Since my issue with flickr and other yahoo sites isn't straightened out yet, I've started looking at other sites.



Maybe I should just re-format my hard drive. I haven't figured it out yet.

Anyway, I'm finishing my bedding and (slowly) getting ready. I think I need to do something more physical though, or I'm going to be too sleepy to go anywhere.

Because I looove Jared Leto...




I know I've posted the last one before, but it's my favorite. I could look at him (Jared) all day and night not to mention listen to his voice.

Still haven't straightened out my internet issues which probably means I need to make a phone call. I think tomorrow, though, I'm going to take a break from working on it/worrying about it. It's way too easy for me to lose track of time that way. I forgot about the laundry I started and nearly forgot my therapy appointment as well. (Forgot to eat before then, too.) Even if I hadn't forgotten to eat and didn't feel half-starved, I was way too cold to hike anyway.

Seeing as how I spent several hours on the computer not having fun, I'm going to spend a little time curled up on the couch (under blankets) and watch "The Mentalist" before I go to bed.

So frustrated...waiting over a week for my mcafee software but they sent me a little card for an online subscription. If that's what I wanted, I would of just downloaded it then. My computer/internet is still being screwy; since about the time my other protection expired. A lot of good it's going to do me if I can't access it online. (And I really, really don't want to have to restore my computer.) I feel like I've barely gotten anything done today. Feeling overwhelmed and stressed and only an hour left before my youngest gets home.

Saturday went well; my youngest's best friend slept over and they watched lots of movies. Have my Halloween costume; going to be a ladybug. Had to get a teen's size for it to fit properly, since I'm so short. My internet is still being screwy, as in I can access some internet sites/pages but not others. I have never been able to NOT figure out what's wrong before and it's giving me a headache.

I had a good reminder from my favorite blog site today: just because someone treats you or makes you feel like you're inadequate/not good enough doesn't mean you are inadequate/not good enough. And when someone treats you in a "less than" way, it's not because of something you've said or done. None of us are that special-or powerful-that we can make anyone behave in a certain way just because of what we've said or done, or haven't said or done. Other peoples behavior is about them, not us. It's so hard, though, not to take certain things personally.

I'm so looking forward to the next two weekends; grown-up birthdays and Halloween. My oldest is so funny, though. Tells me not to flirt with her friend's brothers. First of all, one is married and I've never met him anyway. (That I remember.) Second of all, her other brother's the flirt and he makes me extremely nervous.

I can finally log into my flickr account...I just can't see any of my pics. I give up trying to figure it out, for today, anyway. I have too many other things I need to do. Plus I'm getting cold sitting. (Especially my hands. They're turning a purplish color.)

So, the movie last night was freakin' hilarious! I love Melissa McCarthy. On a coffee (and oats 'n dark chocolate granola bar) break. I don't feel like going back to cleaning, though. At least, not in the living room area. (My youngest turned off my music and has commandeered the television.) I could straighten out my room. It's not that bad, really. Although Sunday morning, I managed to smash my baby toe (on my left foot, the one with no previously broken bones) on a ten pound weight hiding beneath a pile of feather boas. Not broken, just a little swollen and a lot bruised. Anyway, I would say that's a sign I need to do some picking up.

So frustrating...took some nice pics on my hike this afternoon but I can't get into my flickr account...can't even open the login page. (Or the yahoo login page, either.)

Haven't figured out what I'm dressing up as this Halloween. I usually have a pretty good idea a good month in advance. It is, after all, my favorite holiday. Really looking forward to Sunday cause I'm going costume shopping. (That, and I'll be glad to have the birthday stuff over for the youngest.)

Well, all this time trying to figure out what's wrong with my internet (and not finding it) has made me tired. Okay, I was also up until 2 this morning. Going to watch "The Heat" tonight with my girls.