and i am there to have cyber sex. so i meet a guy, we start to cyber and have a fantasy and he wants to have anal, slap me and calls me a whore. normal, at that point i would leave but i was horney and wet and, ok, i wanted to have a fantasy that was a little darker than usual. may i did want to feel more slutty that usual, more like i wss being used. so it goes on, i am getting hotter and hotter and he tells me that while holding me down, he "rams" his cock into my ass and fuck me hard and deep. i am not really happy but i am just so excited that i don't stop him. we cum and he wants to go again. So, this time, i decide to be incontrol and i get on top of him and we fantasies and i slide my finger into his ass. he get uncomfortable and says i should stop. so i do.

soooooooooo, i started to wonder why guys seem to think that women need to a hard cock in their butt to complete their sexual experience but if we put a finger in their but, they run away. i don't have anything back their that excites me (although i did mastrabate once with a dildo in my bum and a rabbit vibrator on my clit and in my pussy and the orgasm was just undescribable. )).

i think next time this happens, my fantasy will include a dry thick long strap on that i fuck him with. let him imagine how horrible that feels.

ok, so i am finished ranting.

happy thanksgiving everyone. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

we had a wonderful vacation in florida. no nude sunning but the weather was wonderful. saw the space shuttle move to the visitor center at the kennedy space center for perminent display. it was sad in a way-----that beautiful machine was going inside to never fly again. funny that i would give almost a human feeling to a machine.

the birds that we usually see had not gotten to florida yet. so birding was just ok. got to spend lots of time in the sun and unfortunately, too much driving.

they have a huge toy store in coca beach. went shopping but i could not find anything that i thought was more exciting than the toys i already have. omg, i never thought i would be going to toy stores.

went to some great places to eat. if you are in titusville, don't miss dixie crossroads. really yummy.

i would love to take a few days to drive down and explore other areas but vacation is just so long and i hate the packing and unpacking.

got in two bike rides----loved the feel of the wind in my hair.

not nearly enough loving but all in all, a great time.

xxxxxxxxxxxxx to all.

it was a beautiful weekend and i seemed to miss it. woke up yesterday, just did not feel like myself. spent most of the day napping. I just don't don't understand why. even hubby mentioned i was acting a little strange.

but back to work today. but it is a short 3 day week because of turkey day.

xxxxxxxxxxxxx all.

just got back from vacation today. it is tough to blog when hubby is in the room. more later.

hugs to all my friends. missed chatting with all of you

xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Still. No power. Generator for fridge and tv but nothing up stairs or the Internet. But we are ok. Xxxxxxxx to all

No power. Wind. Rain. Water in the basement. Clean up tomorrow. Work has been canceled

i had a dream last night. hubby rarely initiates oral. and i love it, both give and receive. i dreamed that hubby suddenly decided to start at my belly button and work his way south with his tongue and fingers. and i said no, i was dirty and need a shower!!!! why would i have said that. well, needless to say, i woke up horney, had lots of stuff to do to prepare for the hurricane but saw his naked chest and began to kiss him, nibble on his nipples, fingers working down toward his cock and he asked me "what are you doing". gee, i thought it was pretty obvious. i told him i would love to give him a nice hand job and then ride him and he said "no, i need a shower and we have stuff we need to do".

is that deja vu but in a spouses body. i would like to say "lol" but i could really have used some loving this morning.

well, back to storm preparation.

stay safe all my nn friends in the storms path. xxxxxxxxxxx

i am watching the weather channel as they talk about hurricane sandy. i can not tell from the things they are saying how bad this will be here. if it goes north, we will be ok. but if the storm turns a little south, it could be a bad time here. i know that this is being selfish but we are leaving on vacation on thursday and it might really impact our trip. couple more days and we will have a better idea of the impact.

i love to watch the vids and pics. some give me ideas, some give me fantasies and, ok, some get me hot and wet and----ok, i take responsibility for my own orgasm----better than waiting for hubby sometimes.

sometimes, i find some this a bit strange. but the one thing i never understand is why a woman would lie there and let a man jerk off over them. it just don't get it? what pleasure does she get? don't get me wrong, i love cum, swallowing it, having it in me, sharing it with my lover as part of a kiss. i love the messness of sex. but the thought of just lying there and watching him jackoff over me does not excite me at all.

xxxxxxx to all

hubby and i visited our friends and had a really good visit. stayed for almost 5 hours--felt sort of bad taking up a table that long, but saw other people there just as long.

soooooo- it was too dark to go bike riding and hubby really did not want to go to the outlets (it would have added another 40 minutes of travel time) so we just headed home. we stopped at hubby's office for a sec and i missed an opputunity---i should have stripped and layed on his desk and let him have me but he promised me sweet loving when we got home so i decided to wait. and guess what, daughter who was suppose to be out until after mindnight was in the driveway when we got home. damn, damn, damn.

so, no loving, no anything.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx to all, glare to my daughter.

ps, hear at the office the other day from a 30 year old that 50 year old does not need sex anymore. grrrrrrrr to her