people always ask me what makes me smile?? well that is easy, when you see me on the mats at the gym you see every tooth. even when i am losing or getting clipped in the face, you see my smile because that is where i feel the best at. i dont think alot of people who know me understand the whole mental side of fighting all they see is two guys trying to beat each other up. but there is a whole opposite side of the game, the preparing to fight, the understanding of your body and what it can handle. so before you ask yes i do smile and dont just judge my sport til you try it because i know none of you would be able to do it like i can.

there is a line from enimen that i like to listen to it goes something like ''this is my life, in my own words i guess.''

recently been thinking back through all the struggles i have had with mma and life in general, but i think i have come to one big conclusion, that everything i have done has led me to be the person i am today. to the people who dont like me, ok go ahead talk shit to me, all your doing is fueling me to prove you wrong. to the ones who love me and respect me, thank you for everything you have done for me, i know i couldnt have done it without you. everytime i train i think about who i am doing it for, not just for me, but for everyone who is cheering me on.

wow lots of news for the night. oscar is home!!! he is in a bit of trouble cuz he is gonna have issues with his mobility but its better that he is home and with family. news for me i got promoted to second stripe blue in bjj. so all in all a great day for me and my family.

Just the subject should let you know what this is about.

Last night 3 years of my life was finally given meaning as I was awarded what is to be hopefully my first of many black belts. Now don't get it twisted, its not in BJJ like I would like, but its the mma and kickboxing black belt that for the last year I have bled and worked my ass off for. To all the partners I have trained with, the ones I have bled with, bruised, battered and hurt each other it has finally made it all worth it. To all the people on here who have believed in me, and cheered me on over the many years that it has taken I am truly honored and happy to have shared this with you and hope one day I can say I am also a BJJ black belt.


thekid53

In everyday life true fights materialize. No championships belts, no grand prize. Just a reason you rise and strive to overcome. It’s not about battles won, it’s what you stand for. It’s sacrificing your comfort and carrying on for a cause. It’s for self satisfaction and not the applause. It’s tarring down walls, it’s what you exercise you might for. We should all have something we fight for,and my fight matters. Does yours?

to my true friends they will not have to worry, but to those friends who dont talk to me other than to tell me how there life is going without asking how mine is, take me off your list cuz thats not a true friend. to those who i have to make contact with to actually ever hear from you, take me off your list cuz thats not a true friend. i am sorry if this pisses some of my friends off but the ones who i know are true and will fight with me til the end know how i truly feel about them and will love and die for them, but the ones who make it all about them, never seem to say anything besides about themselves i am sick of being the bitch in the relationship.

i was trying to think of how to word this for a long time now, a few weeks ago i found a lump on my chest that i was kinda scared about, i didnt tell anyone or call the dr like i know i should have. well finally after about 3 weeks i asked my mother who is a nurse about it cuz i looked it up online and of course the first thing it says is check for cancer. i thought ''oh shit i have cancer?'' well after going to the dr and getting an ultrasound i found out its not cancer just an inflamattion of the breast tissue, yea yea i have breasts lets all be kids with that joke. i am more relieved now than i have been in weeks, should go away on its own soon they think if not than they may have to biopsy it and see but until then i am so happy that its not as bad as i was at first waiting to hear.

You're too fat to be a fighter.
You're not skilled enough to fight.
You're not strong enough to fight.


These are all things i say to myself every time I step into the gym. Most days I fight through it and keep going back, recently after posting about my training I basically got all three of those in an email here from someone, not going to name names.


So I asked myself that question last night before bed and tried to figure it out.

Here is the reason I continue to fight. Because when I first started to train MMA I never thought of doing this as long as I have been doing it. But after getting my head rattled so many times I can't remember, I realized that even though I may not be the best at this I am doing something that millions of people everyday wish they could do, but most don't have the balls to actually step into my shoes and train with the same passion and energy I use.

So to all the people on this site and in the real world if you don't like the way I train or how I train. You can go to hell cuz I bet not 1 single person could come in and do the same stuff I do every single day.

i dont think alot of people are enjoying this place anymore because nn hasnt dealt with any of the regular new peoples complaints just deals with the ones who have been here a long time and some of them have left cuz of this as well

if this is a true thing, i think i am buying an ipad

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