The strings of love are trying to choke me
you say none are attached but you're trying to joke me
A kiss in the car and a drive in the bed
I want independence from the sexy things you've said
But they whisper in my soul
And they really take a hold
Maybe we should try
Maybe we should try

The strings of love are trying to kill me
Coming undone trying to reveal me
I've been hiding my heart hiding my face
In every available hiding place
But I guess you found me out
You really found me in love
Maybe we should try
Maybe we should try

And in the beginning there was love
In the beginning there was light
In the beginning there was love
And in the beginning there was love
In the beginning there was light
In the beginning there was love
I want to take it further
I want to take it further
I want to take it on forever
I want to take it on forever

Cause he's just that hot.

I was watching "That's My Boy" earlier (cause I'm an Adam Sandler fan.) And fthere was a reference to this Ricky Martin song. Although I like "Living La Vida Loca" better.

Getting ready to head over to my friend's for a bit...I should be further along in the getting ready department, but I thought it would be a great idea to bring my camera into the bath with me. Not to send to anyone right now. I've only done that with two men. So I don't know if I'm all hot and bothered because I was taking pics or because of who I was thinking about when I was taking pics. Great idea, though, get myself all riled up before going out by myself. (Although I may be meeting up with my daughter and her fiance later.)

Way too cold to war my glorious new heels...but I didn't want to worry about breaking something anyways. So I'm going to save them for a date. One not involving hiking.

I never make New Year's resolutions. I do, however, reflect on the past year and the things I was happy about and the things I'd like to be different.

And now, I need to get my procrastinating but in gear and get dressed.

Watched movies with my youngest earlier. "MIB3" and "The Amazing Spiderman." Thought they were both pretty good. Never got around to cleaning my room. Got distracted by other things. My oldest is going to touch up my hair for me in the morning. (Hopefully, it will not turn to mush again.) And I'm just now remembering I wanted to work on my writing from the other morning but I'm way too tired to now.

Just got off the phone with my friend. I was supposed to take her to the clinic to make sure she doesn't have any fractures...actually, I've tried the last three days. I guess she slept all of today. But at least I got all of my bedding washed. (So I don't know why I'm procrastinating going to bed.) My room is even half-way picked up. Hopefully, I'll get the rest of that tomorrow.

Yeah, that off for good ex decided to go to my oldest's place of work. he wanted her to cut his hair again. After he bitched (through text) how she messed it up. I'm like, what a freakin' weirdo. (I do seem to attract them.) He just sent me another text, too. I deleted him from my contacts but I still recognize his number. I don't understand. If someone ignores me-and especially if I was only half-interested-I'm not going to keep trying to get their attention. If someone doesn't want my attention when they have it, I lose interest. He told me once, that he couldn't get a read on me, didn't know what I was feeling. I'm like, duh. If I tell you I like you, I like you. If I seem happy to see you, it's because I am. If I tell you I want to see you it's because I like you a lot and I want to see you. How that can be interpretated any other way is beyond me. Just like if someone ignores you, the only logical interpretation there is they do not like you/are not interested.

I guess, it's off to bed for me. My alarm goes off in about 5 hours and 20 minutes.

I really love this song. I don't remember ever seeing this video, though. And maybe it's just me, being all sex deprived, but there sure seems to be an awful lot of phallus-shaped scenery.

The first Metallica song I learned to love. When I was stationed overseas, one of the guys in my unit was a huge Metallica fan. He had every album they ever made-on cd and video. (And I got him to listen to Madonna and admit he liked her!)

Couple drawbacks to being off my adhd meds for a week then go back on them-had headaches all week-probably kinda like withdrawal since most adhd meds are classified as narcotics and not supposed to be suddenly stopped. (Not to mention tired, lethargic, and downright depressed.) And now, I have a monster headache from taking it. Adhd meds also increase dopamine levels in the brain...so now, I'm craving sex more than I usually do. (Which would be great if I had a current lover. But since I don't, it's way less than great, it's frustrating.) So yeah, other than this massive headache and bit of sexual frustration, I feel pretty damn good!

Breaking in my new heels for New Year's Eve. 5 inch heels. I don't think I've ever owned a pair of 5 inch heels before. (Lots of 4 inch ones, though.) I'm wearing them around the house so I can get used to walking in them. I'd hate to have to relegate them to the bedroom.

Yes, I was finally able to fill my much needed prescription for my adhd. So this morning, I am feeling much more like myself. I was even up, writing at 7:30 and I can't remember the last time that happened. I would like to just sit for a few minutes, but I have a lot of chores to catch-up on, not to mention it's kinda hard to sit still right now.