Anyone else watching Rockstar Supernova? I watched it tonight for the first time. Some good singers but wow some of those chick try to hard to be scary looking. And I hate the attitudes. Yes you have a right to defend yourself but you don't need to act like an ass to do it. These guys are already accomplished singers and just maybe they know more than you do. Also I dunno...I don't see a girl fronting the band being a success but thats also why I am not in the music industry. Whos my favorite? hehe at the moment Jenny and Lukas cause they are Canadian and the Aussie Tody cause the boy has energy, he can sing and hes hawtttttttt

YAY Italy!

Woot the Italians won!
What an amazing game! Plus wowza those Italians are hotttttttt. MMMM MMMM MMMMM'

Oh and as an extra added plus...remember #1..hes italian and in one happyyyyyyyyyyyy mood tonight...oh and he does like me! Score for the Italians!

Hmm is it just see or does no one in Canada speak English anymore? I am not being racist or anything but wow..my hotel was full tonight and I would say I am the only person who spoke english as a first language.
How I would love to be fluent in many languages..WAIT! In one way I am ....so far I haven't found a guy who I can't flirt with..and there is the language of love so I am considering myself officially bilingual!

HAHA well I had a moment of great panic last night! Remember #1....well I thought he found about NN. Its not that I would I never tell him its just I want to try a different route this time after my last experience. If something ever happened I would tell him about here

anyways...he quoted something from one of my past blogs and I near FREAKED. I am sure if anyone could have seen me that my face went white then red then multi colored lol.

I've never done anything so fast as I deleted my pics last night...haha. I think I almost sprained something hahahah. And the reason..I had found an old blog I posted and liked it so I posted it in my myspace account last night which he does have the address for!

Anyways thats why the pics are gone. I am not sure if I will repost them...I feel bad when I repost a pic..kinda like saying the comments/rating I got on the first time wasn't enough. I don't give a hoot about ratings but I love the comments and it sucks I lost them
They always made me feel good when I feel bad about myself. Meh maybe I should just wait until the end of summer and take some new ones??

Today is pay day so you know its going to be good..and it was an ok day. I got a lot of work done tonight and that makes me feel good. I love having a job that I can not only do but do well. I love the fact that its never the same and that I met so many people. I will truly miss it when November comes (and I feel like its already racing after me and its only July)
Not too much is new and exciting at the moment..I got my scale to work again which is a good thing because it keeps me motivated since I cheated all day today (but damn that strawberry cheesequake blizzard was yummy..I just need to keep telling myself size 3 will be yummy too)
No news from guy 3... I was asked to go out to an event next week he will be at (not by him but by the one trying to set us up) but sadly I work. Then again that may be good so as the meeting is more natural...lol keep the mystery and all.
Guy #1...well hes kinda not totally out of the picture yet..I guess when we meet up then I shall know..which is cool because then I can still look around. I just can't seem to get him out of my head. I am almost certain he wants nothing but you know how you just can't let go of somethings? Hes awesome...even if nothing happens I pray we remain friends

Why is it that even if something good happens you can still feel its not enough? I don't even know if thats the right way to describe it.
I found out that #1 is not into me. Boy I guess I read it wrong. We are friends and all and I knew it wasn't going to be a smooth road or anything but I thought there was at least hope.

Ok but before I get ahead of myself

2 good things happened today

I've for sure lost more weight...Not sure how much but I had a pair of pants on today that I never wore before (haha I know-why buy them in the first place)

Then I went out Saturday and it was too the place #3 works. We flirted some and ended up in a kinda half hugish kinda thing (cant read anything into it)Then today he called me at work which is good but I don't know if he called cause he wanted to or he was made to. (someone is trying to hook us up) He was sweet and asked my why I left so early Saturday night and he was asking if I was going to be at another event later in the summer. Yes I realize these are good but like I said...I don't know if he called cause he wanted to...he was made too...or he called as a friend. I am the worlds worst at understanding when someone likes me, and I am so goddamned tired of being so wrong. Its like everytime it happens I get more and more upset and depressed when really we never had anything so there is no reason to be that way.

So for the moment I am leaving it open that maybe #3 is interested but I will wait on that one...and now #1 is for sure not when I was so sure he was. I am happy someone may be interested but what if hes not either?

I am tired of waiting and am scared its just not going to happen and before someone says to be patient...trust me...Ive been alone for a long time now and patience just doesnt come into play anymore. I am not wanting sex (OK wait..yes I am) but more so I want the someone to talk to, someone to be goofy with and someone to have fun with.

Sigh one of these days I pray it all makes sense.

Beautiful..just trying to believe it

ohh Canada


Well its Canada day and canada couldnt drink so I drank for canada and boy oh boy did I do a good job!! Lets see...good food...great friends....an awesome barteneder who serves doubles and sings Karaoke with you...a table of hot guys being goofy and singing hits from the 80's and one totally sloshed Beachy..what more can you ask for on a National holiday??

/me salutes the great white north in all its glory

hmmm how did I go from having no one to now having three potential candidates??

Number one : a sweetheart, 100% amazing person. Hmm hes Italian, into sports like me, funny, nice, cute, lives near Toronto and we are meeting up sometime this summer.

Number two: is from London Ontario..somewhat of a mystery..kinda flirts but shyly. I know hes one of those guys who once I get to open up he'd be a lot of fun and probably lots of fun in the bedroom too heheh. Just not sure if we are on a friend only or a maybe something more journey.

Number three: well hmm he just came up to me a few weeks ago at a bar and sat there and asked me about my day (he knew where I had been) and we talked for a bit..very nice..friendly cute...hahahaahh and I will see him Saturday night. My friends know him and are always telling me about his good qualities..
Who knows I guess
decisions decisions..I like em all in different ways and for different reasons...as much as I dont want to be single having a few to choose from could be fun.

Oh BTW I srarted REALLY trying to get into shape this summer...not bad in the past few weeks I am down about 10 lbs! Now if I could just tone at the same time!

I realize just how busy I am going to be this summer. I swear if I would have had a podometer (sp??) on tonight I would have broke it..up stairs..down stairs...inside outside...front rooms back rooms and everybody wants everything at once. Not to mention if someone gets things everyone wants it. HAHAH oh well this will just help my mission to get in shape this summer...between all the exercise and not having time to eat I should be a size 1 by September (a gal can dream!)

I hope the start of everyones summer is going awesome

Aww Edmonton lost

ok time to think of some better things..I posted this in the forum but I am going to post it here too

6 of us are going camping and we are going to play truth or dare - battle of the sexes. Does anyone out there know some good dares?? Nothing overly sexual at first..although I am sure thats where it will end in some fashion