it's a bitchy time....

so today i went to the house... we were to have a bbq... so i took all the stuff to make a killer potato salad which really is btw... i made it and i do my laundry while i'm there too... so the grill gets going and....................then i'm asked to leave.... no problem until.....

i get home and realize that i have just been asked to leave my sons 13th birthday BBQ.... you know i don't even know what emotion i'm feeling right now....

happy saturday all you sexys .... mwa jacq

fuck you cunt....that's sexy....

i was taken out of the ghetto... i hate where i was put... i miss where i was... and i just have an extreme feeling of discombobulation....

you see ... i love the crazy people... the peeps from mental health across the hall... the peeps from the methadone clinic across the street... the homeless that are drinkin the 40 on the curb at 7:30 in the morn....

i don't understand any of it... the reasoning is assinine or at least the reason that i'm being told is.... what i'm told i did is actually not legal... i don't roll that way...

i think it may be more of a woman scorned... after all this decision came down from the owners wife ... and the owner just had twins today by his mistress... what a better way than to fuck up your money maker by removing the strongest people ...

you all have a happy hump day tomorrow... i will at the other "sterile" office....

mwa jacq

things are movin right along... al had his 19th birthday on friday...this is the first year i have gotten him nothing.. it sucks... i will give him some cash in a few weeks but first i have to get it.... tikka is now talking to me ... somewhat... but ... there always has to be a but...bob since coming home with me tonite has been everything but nice to me... it's rough... it sucks...right now it's life... everyone's mad at me it seems whenever i turn around... this is what it really all is about ... sometimes a body just gets tired of trying to make everyone happy all the time ...

i so didn't mean for this blog to turn into a rag session .. but it seems that's where it went ... sorry...

i wish everyone a happy monday... i'm just glad it's another day

mwa jacq

i have no regrets but i do have some lonely lonely days/nites...could be the fact that it's so quiet in this place... thank god i will be getting some tv in 2 days....

i haven't questioned myself as to if i'm doing the right thing... more so... some things have come about that make me feel my decision was the right choice to make...it's funny how in a simple message or two a person can make another feel worthless... or rather is that all someone was in the first place....

i've never liked bribes.... like when your kids say i'll do this if you do that... i don't play like that .... never have never will...

i'm really quiet torn with all of this ... i've always felt this is my place to put my feelings... i've never held back with my blogs here...it's always been my way of getting over shit.... except for the last few months...for no other reason than respect.... today i feel i was disrespected and it hurts for no other reason than i felt i was more than that...

tonite i have been let know where i stand....

happy hump day all .... jacq

well i haven't had internet in a couple of days...the neighbors that i was stealing it from didn't pay their bill i asked if they were gonna get it turned back on... who knows .... so for now i'm back to dial-up and let me tell you this shit is slow as hell....

hope you all had a good weekend and happy monday tomorrow... i'm off )

mwa jacquie

was strange to say the least ...shit happened that made me laugh and shit happened that made me think WTF.....

i've heard a bazillion reasons why people have rampant decay... broken teeth ect...they got in a car wreck... they got pregnant... they were born with soft teeth... blah blah .... most of the reasons are because of circumstance...whether it was no flouride when the teeth were developing... lack of hygeine.... drug use (which it isn't the drug it's the lifestyle)... medications that dry the mouth ect... it is what it is... today however i heard a reason that omg ... well lets just say that she said "ever since i had my hysterectomy it's caused my teeth to fall apart" ... that folks is number 1 on the top 10 list.....

so the funnies... paul bagged up some shit for me that i brought home and went thru ... most of which went to goodwill... i had some toys in there too... so i'm at work today and i tell my co-worker i had anal beads that went to goodwill... she said omg jacquie i hope you bleached them some mom is gonna buy them and give em to her kids as a chew toy... omg i'm still laughing hysterically ....

i hope everyone is having an awesome week .... mwa jacquie

well i have one that won't talk to me really at all that hurts...bad.....everyone wants their kids to love them...i do believe he was only tolerant of me today because he was asked to be.... there is nothing fucking easy about any of this ... nothing...

some say they're staying home to wash their hair.... i stayed home to rip all my nails off.....OUCH....there were a few butt twitching momments this nite....happy saturday everyone... and happy easter to those of you who are already to sunday

mwa ... jacquie

i got called a cock-sucker at work today by a patient... and your point is????? hahaha....

hope everyone had a happy hump day....

mwa jacquie