i've dipped out... as far as i can tell nobody has noticed....and that's fine... got a bit to personal to share...

in blogs that is....some shit is just to hard to deal with on your own... i've asked for help and have gotten it ....

kinda funny i started going for a reason and other shit spilled into it.....

kids of parents like mine are a trip... i could have been worse...

happy hump day....................

me thinks i have disappeared for way to long.....

happy friday..... mwa jacq

but for whatever reason i can't ... i just can't ... maybe it's all to personal and up close... idk maybe i never will...

gotta a call tonite from a really cool person that you all know and that i love so much and that i'm so so happy for his fam...

please if you all read this send well wishes, thoughts and prayers to fire, his wife and family.....

everyone have a happy hump day tomorrow....

jacquie

when you thought (me that is) that your schema couldn't get any more fucked up.... i don't understand it ... probably never will...several people have let me down...but tonite.... the last person in the world that i ever thought would....did....

i needed to talk... i needed to be listened to....i for sure wasn't being dramatic but ... i needed to be listened to...i truly thought that i was more important than some things....

never make that mistake again.... this, i guess.... i have to realize that i have to deal with on my own with the support of a counsler.....sucks but such as life....

j

in my life have i had the experience that i had today.... i went for the 1st time in my life to see a psychologist...when i met the dude... or when he came out to get me... i guess i could only say i was shocked... he had been burned and burned bad... really bad (truly he was disfigured) ... he told me it was a car fire... i'm sure my face showed something when he initially called me back....

i talked with him for 2 amazing hours...i really needed it...for reasons

at the end of it (when it was winding down) i was looking at him really looking at him in the face... making eye contact... at times i hadn't because i was crying and such at times

but there at the end when i looked at him... there was just a person... and i mean seriously there where no disfigurements... no scars....it was weird ... it was just idk... where did it all go? i know i saw it before....

maybe crazy cool???

have a great friday everyone... i plan to... mwa jacquie

chat is really not what it used to be??

happy thanksgiving....

mwa.... jacq

long ass days it's been.... some have passed in a fog for different reasons.... but today i finally found someone to talk to....

and if i go back and think of it... it really was all so simple... somedays a body just can't see what's in front of them...

i will be patiently waiting till next thursday... you all have an awesome turkey day...

mwa jacq

ya made my nose twitch...no clue why.... but you did....

i hope you all had a good weekend... mine sucked... till md made my nose twitch...lol...

happy sunday everyone... mwa jacq

doesn't matter if you go top to bottom or bottom to top... which way do you slash your box???? / or \ ......

yeah it's a work issue and i'm gonna win cause i know i'm right.... hope you all had a happy hump day....

mwa... jacq

so i'm on facebook... and i get this friend request.... from myself???? well not really but someone with the same first name jacquie... spelled the same way... with the same last name as my maiden name... spelled the same way... she lives in aussie.... weird... just plain weird...

happy sunday everyone...

mwa... jacq