it ran out in the middle of the road.... it was confused on which way to go...back and forth and back and forth... i was on the phone callin bob in sick.... driving a stick...

i have never hit and killed anything ever before today... poor squirrell...

loves .... mwa ... jacq

someone surely forgot to shut and lock the doors this day... one right after the other.... the most bizarre people today...

my highlight? was the chick thanked me for putting a crown on her tooth.... seems her previously chipped tooth had cut her boyfriends dick...
i almost pissed myself....

happy tuesday sexys.... mwa jacq

doesn't it seem like one armpit always shaves nicer than the other???

happy sunday... mwa jacquie

is a lil bit of how i've been feeling lately.... but..... i found someone to talk to... he's awesome and lovely and so just there when i need him to be...he told me he was going to find someone local for me to talk to... long story short turns out she's a patient of mine... didn't find that out till after we had talked... i cried... laughed... and all that together for over 2 hours..... typed to the previous mentioned above who put my feelings in perspective a bit and made me feel like i'm not totally crazy ... he said


you have learned that your son has a cronic illness that can turn terminal.. who wouldnt freak about that at first until the person can see that if taken care of u can have a full life..

talking to someone that can relate is wonderuruss... my word and i like it .... hope you all had a happy hump day ....

mwa jacquie

they are married.......

last nite was my cousins bachlorette party... which in itself was way fun .... way crazy... but what she told me last nite was the coolest...

i never mentioned that the day al called me my cuz was going thru a screening process to mentor youths touched or affected by this.... i didn't know it at the time...

anyway... she spoke with the co-founder.... told him she had worries about me and the fact that there wasn't any support group for people like me... there's not i've looked and i've called .... and looked... and called.... but he said there should be... and wanted to know if i would be a part of it.... hell yes.... wanted to know if he could base it on my situation.... hell hell yes....so in october they are going to try to launch this and make it work... and i swear i will do everything i can to make it work....something about 200 signatures... i can be the best forger.... haha... kidding people would be stupid to not support it...

hope you all had a kick ass weekend.... mine was full of penis's....penis plates... penis cupcakes... penis straws.... a penis veil... and penis pacifiers.... lol ...

happy sunday .... mwa jacquie

to the site that is ... and i called...talked to a super cool gal... seems there is no support group for anyone like me...i guess there used to be and then along came hipaa....

she said she's going to try to find a mom for me to talk to....(hipaa) if she doesn't...at this point than that's okay....but...she validated my feelings...i told her ... i've been chattin with a counselor who has no clue... she told me they weren't trained for it....

i need to talk to someone who can say... when this happened or that happened i felt this way... i need to know that my feelings are normal... i need to talk with someone who's life in anyway has been affected by this...

if i can be there for one mom... dad... sibling.. whatever... to deal with whatever the hell this feeling is then i will....nobody should ever have to do this alone...i'm not going to go crazy with it.. i still have a life but... no mother should have to deal with this and have nobody to contact.. talk to.... if i can in any possible way help that happen i will... it needs to....

i've vented and feel better... to all that read it thank you... and everyone have a super happy friday....

mwa.... jacquie

p.s. i don't want anyone to think that my fam hasn't been here for me ...they have ....i'm just the one hit the hardest....

i love to google stuff... for information... cause i'm curious or whatever.... but when i'm really looking for something i need i can't seem to find it... and i really don't have the patience when i can't (find it that is).....there is a certain something i have been looking for, for almost 2 months... and have been really disappointed...

got a lil bird in my ear... okay not really ... got a pm telling me about a website... it was in a different county but super close.... something in the name made a light bulb go off in my head ..... so i googled something myself and found a plethora of info... support groups...counseling.. just plain help in dealing.... and so on...

it amazes me how someone so far away and not even in the same country could help me find something that was literally in my backyard... i will be forever grateful and i just want to say thank you juicy for your kind and caring support....

you all really enjoy your happy hump day... mwa jacquie

it said....

you played a huge part in my life, you loved me when i felt like no one else did and i will be forever grateful.

that is the stuff that makes life wonderful....

mwa... jacquie

there always seems to be drama at the house on the weekends....all i really want is one quiet one.. tonites drama is not something i wanted to ever happen.... but it did...i really wish some people would listen to me ... i'm not always right but on some things i'm adamant... and those things are usually right....i don't know what will come of it... only time will tell.... thank goodness i work tomorrow... i get to step out of all this for a min...

hope you all have a happy weekend.... jacq