Anyone read Alice In Wonderland? You remember the Queen Of Hearts right? That is what I feel like right now. A squat, fugly woman running amok and screaming "Off with your head!!" to whomever has the misfortune to annoy me today.

I am in a baaaaaaad way right now. I hate everything around me. My clothes, my hair, my body, my shoes, my couch, my kitchen counters etc etc. I feel bloated, ugly and unstable. I am yo-yoing between weepiness and spiraling anger. I have cramps and zits on my neck and chin that would make Vesuvius look like an anthill. Aint hormones grand??? I am horny but god help you if you touch me, I am angry at people but I don't want to be left alone. I want a cheeseburger. A big fatty, drippy, disgustingly fattening cheeseburger. With a side of extra crispy onion rings. And a milkshake, a chocolate one. Grease, salt and sugar and a lot of it. Yum.

I should be good and be satisfied with the chaste, non-fat yogurt or the dull yet healthy Fuji apple; they are the 'right' things to eat. They won't go straight to my ass and tummy and thighs like their bad boy neighbor the cheeseburger but sometimes nothing satisfies quite like the "bad boy's" now, right?

I wouldn't blame my husband if he didn't want to come home right now. Who wants to be confronted by a sniveling, screeching 5 foot tall monster? Thankfully I only get this way a couple times a year, normally it aint this bad. I just can't seem to help myself right now. Maybe I should just go and lay down for a few minutes and collect myself before he gets home. Maybe I need a valium.

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Depeche Mode "Halo"

I got up to take a pee a half hour ago (yeah at 2:38am) and guess what? Aunt Flow. My fricking period. Greeeeaaaaaat. That just shot our weekend to shit and I am now having a temper tantrum like a spoiled child denied her candy.

We had a 'date' with a couple on Friday and then Saturday we were going to a swingers party so there would have been that hook-up, too. It would have been a sex packed weekend and now - nothing. Fuck I am pissed off. I was so horny, too. It couldn't have waited just a couple days...Sunday morning would have been perfect. I would have gladly given up the Sunday Morning sex if I could have kept Friday and Saturday but apparantly Aunt Flow was not in a bartering mood, that bitch.

Meh. I am gonna take my (now) bloated ass back to bed and try and sleep insted of feeling terribly sorry for myself, seeing as how it is 3:30am I suppose I should be sleeping. I surely won't be fucking, dammit.

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Me. Pitching a total bitch and being a total whiner.

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize - we're floating in space -
Do You Realize - that happiness makes you cry
Do You Realize - that everyone you know someday will die

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize - Oh - Oh - Oh
Do You Realize - that everyone you know
Someday will die -

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize




Do You Realize by The Flaming Lips

Puurrs to all, and don't forget to take the time today to tell the ones you love just how much you love them....xxoo K

Just another day, ho hum. It looks like it will be a nice one, weather-wise. Wish I was feeling better and could enjoy it.

I really need to take better care of myself. Waaay too many late nights and too few hours of sleep, eating junk and not working out for over a week are taking their toll. The virus I had thought was all gone has decided to come back. I started to feel like crap late yesterday afternoon. My folks are watching my son today so I can maybe relax a little. My husband wants me to go back to bed and sleep all day but part of me thinks I should go excercise; get the blood moving and make my sluggish body wake up. I just don't know what to do. The only thing I do know is that I treated my body like crap and now I am paying for it. I am not 19 anymore. I can't get 3 hours sleep a night and eat junky food and function properly or remain healthy. I am gonna go make a cup of tea and then maybe hit the treadmill for a while, just to get moving a little. Get myself back on track. Then I will go and take a nap. There...decision made.

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: James "Say Something"

Monday. Wish it would go away. I am so tired. I don't even know why I should be tired, I did fuck-all yesterday. We ended up not going to the Obon as the couple we had planned to go with flaked!

We waited and waited and then just packed the idea in. Kind of a bummer but oddly enough none of us were in a mood to do much but hang around the house anyhow. We did happen to have some rather excellent 'sneaky' sex yesterday. I have to thank good old Spongebob for providing the distraction for our son, which gave us the oppurtunity to slip away to our bedroom and screw like animals in heat lol. It was damn good, so good I had to strip off the sheets afterwards as they were a total mess. I am not a fan of sleeping on patches of dried cum or wet spots so into the washer they went.

Afterwards we went out for late lunch at a gourmet deli. The weather was awesome so we ate outside. My son and I were having fun feeding bits of our sandwiches to the little birds hanging about. He and I always end up feeding our food to the birds, I don't know why. We came back home and hubby and I layed out in the sun in the backyard while our son played games in the basement. It was very relaxing to have a full tummy and just hang out in the sun, listen to music and read a book. It was a really nice, low-key day. Pity it had to end


Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: The hum of my hard drive

We spent the day at the Brentwood Cornfest yesterday. We had been before a few years ago and it had been fun - kind of a small town county fair type vibe. I guess progress is good, but not in this case. What had been the funky, fun ag based festival was nothing more than a ton of vendors selling crappy stuff, a couple booths selling roasted corn ears and a shitpot of carnival rides. It was a disappointment. Not to mention it was hotter then hell as well. We must have consumed at least 6 bottles of water in just a few hours.

We had gone with our friends Hannah and Chris and their kids so at least all of the kids had a good time playing and riding rides while we wilted in the shade. Hannah's nose got burned and my face got a little toasty and all of our kids looked like they had been dipped in dirt by the time we left. They were also pretty much covered in cotton candy as well, they looked like street urchins lol. We went back to their place and watched a movie and cooled off in the AC while the kids played. The guys went to pick up some dinner and we all ate and then said our goodbyes and had to head home. We didn't get back till close to midnight, and I am so beat. We are supposed to go to another festival today but I am just not feeling it. Kinda 'festival-ed' out I guess. Plus I dont fancy another afternoon being charred. I wore a ton of sunblock and I still got fried!!! WTF?

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Modest Mouse "Ocean Breathes Salty"

We were messing around in bed last night and my husband was fingering me and then he found my G spot and ohhhh mannnnnn! Can I tell you how much I love G spot orgasms? Fantastic! It is so different then a regular orgasm, it just seems to come in wave after wave; I felt like I was cumming for like 5 full minutes, it just didn't stop. Very very nice. I went to sleep with a big smile on my face.

Now on tap for this weekend is a trip to a corn festival in Brentwood today (I love funky stuff like that) with friends, and then tomorrow we will be bringing some other friends to our local Obon Festival in Japan Town. They are from out-of-state and have never been to an Obon. We love Japanese culture and food so we attend as many of our local Japanese festivals that we can. There will be taiko, Bon Odori - traditional dancing and the Buddhist temple is open to the public. Lots of fun games for our son and lots and lots of yummy food! I swear I will be 5 pounds heavier by Sunday night, I just love festival/fair foods. It is so hard to resist!!

Have a good weekend, folks

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Queen "Killer Queen"

That is gonna be my phrase of the day. I am so congested it is maddening. This virus is running it's course and now I am snuffling and snorting like a runny-nosed shetland pony. I think I have a box of tissues in every room of the house now. What a drag. Oh and it's really really difficult and way unsexy to give a BJ with a headcold. I just couldn't do it - I couldn't breathe! I gotta give props to my husband, sweet man that he is for even finding me sexy right now looking and sounding like this, what a guy...


Puurrs to all,

Currently liistening to: Portishead "Sour Times"

It's not strep! Yay! Got my throat culture back and it isn't strep, just some virus that is going around. My doc said she had seen droves of people with the same thing the past couple weeks so I am happy I don't have to be on antibiotics. They are no fun.

I was feeling so fragile and under the weather when he came home from work yesterday. It is funny that when I get ill I either get really grumpy and solitary or really needy and want to be coddled. This time I am in the wants-to-be-coddled mode. It is kind of nice to have someone caring for you and fetching you drinks and snacks and rubbing your feet. I have felt so un-sexy and unattractive the past couple days. Who feels hot & sexy when they are hacking and wheezing and have a runny nose? I had just been wearing a tank top and a pair of panties all day and when he came home the first thing he said was how sexy I looked. What a funny man he is. He just wanted to touch me all over and then he pulled me out of my chair and took me to the day bed and removed my panties and very gently pushed me down on the bed. I was aroused but feeling very passive and I just lay there and let it all wash over me, let him play with my body. He made love to me with his fingers, tongue and cock. It was lovely. I swear to you since we started swinging the more I experience other men the more I appreciate my husband. Yes I am attracted to other guys and have desire for them physically, but oddly enough I find I desire my husband more now than I ever did. His hands on my body are comforting and his cock fits me perfectly. It feels like 'home.' Funny how us being with other people have made us even closer to eachother. I think I am very lucky and am married to a pretty special guy. I think I will keep him lol.

BTW, we will be having our 10th wedding anniversary in a couple weeks. I can't believe how the years have flown. Married 10 years! We have been together for even longer, too. Time flys when you are having fun, huh?

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Fort Minor "Where'd You go"

So I wake up coughing this morning, my throat felt like someone had been shoving golf balls down it all night long. I reached next to me and hubby was not there. Bummer. I had hoped he would be there so I could make a pouty face and convince him to make me a cup of tea so I wouldn't have to get out of bed. No dice, he wasn't there.
I drank a bottle of water instead and then got up to go potty.

I finished up and he walks in wearing just a t-shirt and sporting a hard-on. He said he had been perving on the pics he took of the party this weekend, particularly the ones of Hannah going down on me and he was pretty much ready to bust a nut after looking at them. He turns on the shower and I am just sitting there and his cock is just staring at me and while yes, I am sick and feeling like crap, I had the burning urge to put it in my mouth. Sore throat be damned.

That is how I ended up butt-nekkid, sitting on the toilet seat with his cock in my mouth. I am weak willed and can't resist a cock being waved in my face; it's a character flaw I am sure, but who gives a fuck? It was delicious with all that pre-cum oozing out. Periodically he would say "but you are sick...." or "what about your sore throat???" I just smiled (hard to do with a cock in your mouth) and sucked harder and tried not to laugh at his little protestations. Funny, I didn't see him pulling it out of my mouth now did I? And as for me? Sick?? Bah! I cared not one whit. All I wanted was to see him with his head thrown back, hear him groan, feel his hand in my hair and fill my mouth with his cum. It made me feel much better then any amount of Sudafed, zinc tablets or cups of hot tea would have made me feel. It was GOOD.

The best part of it all for me was seeing the expression on his face after he came. He has this certain look and I love to see it, it is so satisfying to me to know that I caused that to happen. Maybe that is why I love BJ's so much. He hopped in the shower to get ready for work and I went back to bed and snoozed.

Yes I am still sick, still have the sore throat and all, but that is ok. I will just rest as much as I can and it will pass soon enough.

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Snow Patrol "Chasing Cars"