Today was the first time I had the house to myself in over a week. For not even an hour. Thought I was going to have yesterday afternoon, but there actually wasn't school. (And yes, I did get my daughter up to get ready.) So there wasn't even my usual hour I have to myself Monday mornings. It's hard for me to do some things with a lack of privacy. Kids are nosy. Especially my oldest. So I'm tired, cranky,and oh-so frustrated...

Glad spring break is ending after tonight though it wasn't as trying as I thought it would be. (I wasn't constantly harassed to entertain.) Went to my friend's for Easter. We do most holidays together-when we're on speaking terms. Sometimes, I wonder though, what goes on in her head. If she thinks at all before she open her mouth. Religion and politics, two things most people shouldn't discuss. Especially if you don't have your facts straight. (I know some people are confused by what a fact is and believe it's anything they see on tv or the internet cause we all know people never lie or make up ridiculous stories with no basis of truth in them.) Well, at least I wasn't bored!

My adoptive parents had this on a record I loved to listen to growing up.


Amazing.


But I love this one best.

Story of my life...jonesing, guess it's a good thing I had to stay home.

One of my favorite parts...as a rule, I don't generally watch romantic anything, but it's not because I have anything against romance. It's just that movies-and romance novels-are usually quite unrealistic. I do really love the whole romance-flowers, poetry, walks in the moonlight, etc, etc...but my libido usually gets in the way.

My day had a nice enough start to it. Then I got a subpoena for my 13 yr old, from the DA. That's stress I'd rather do without. I've taught my daughter to be honest so I'm not worried about that. I am worried about it distressing her, though. So I haven't said a thing about it to her. (If I did, she'd go on and on and on about it until the court date, and probably after.) And it's unlikely that she's going to be intimidated. I've always talked to children the way I do adults. And my youngest is what is known as a "spirited child." She says what she thinks most of the time (I'm still not sure if I'm more afraid of her or my oldest meeting anyone I date.) She sees things in black and white. And if she thinks you're wrong, she'll tell you. She's not trying to be rude, most of the time, it's just the way her brain works, apparently. (Which is super-frustrating for me when I try to correct her.) But anyway, I ended up spending my day differently than I'd planned which just added more stress to my day. But that's okay. I'm going to relax now, maybe watch tv with my youngest, have a drink after I eat...not stay up too late since I have to run errands tomorrow. And do the things I was going to do today. (Monday afternoon, I can't hardly wait.)

My phone phobia doesn't just pertain to making calls. I always screen them, too. If I don't recognize the number, I won't answer. If it's important, they can leave a message. I don't really like texting either, it's time consuming, but easier on the nerves.

It was beautiful out...I think I spent a good hour tramping through the snow.



The best part (other than the obvious of having my much desired alone time) was hearing the the sound of the little brooks created by the melting snow.



I love spring. It's always been my favorite season.

My friend wanted me to go to court with her again, for a status conference...I'd kind of forgotten about it the night before and stayed up way too late. Some of it was probably cause I didn't really want to go...but I was also tired, and my bed was really comfy...so I laid there, day-dreaming and otherwise distracting myself for a good hour longer than I thought. I was only 2 minutes late, but I wasn't going to walk into the courtroom when the doors were closed. Besides, her mother was there, anyway, so she wasn't by herself. So I waited in the hallway and tried to write. But between the noisiness and the creepy guy watching me, it was really hard to focus.

Really craving some alone time. I mean, when I'm actually completely by myself in the space I'm occupying. Unless the weather isn't cooperating, I think I'll go hiking after therapy.