So I was reading this article online (from Natalie Lue's baggage Reclaim) about closure on closure. Really, who cares why someone's acting the way they are or why they did what they did? We should be figuring out what we think, need, want, and expect instead of wasting time thinking and worrying about them. Yeah, it really bites getting dumped or rejected, and it bites even more when the other person has the indecency to pull a disappearing act or not give any reasons or explanations. The thing is, if someone fails to deliver on something they suggested, hinted at, and even sometimes pushed for, it has nothing to do with us. We didn't make them change their mind. We didn't do something to fuck things up. It was never a genuine offer in the first place. Closure doesn't always come in the package we'd like it to. Sometimes, it does mean just walking away. Not always easy to do, but never impossible. If we think we can't, it's because we're avoiding something-maybe even several things.

Anyway, I had a nice time with my girls last night. I never had bloody marys before. Because I absolutely loathe tomato juice. So I made just a little one, and I thought, hey, not bad. Tastes kinda like cold, spicy tomato soup. So I added more and put a little too much vodka in it and yuck! But what I really needed was to get out of my house. At times, I have a tendency to isolate myself, and this past week was one of those times. (Other than returning the movie I rented, yesterday was the first time this week I went farther than my yard.)

My favorite music video ever! (And my second favorite Cure song.)

I didn't really do what I was planning today, but that's okay cause it was a pretty productive day anyway. I was going to work on/go through some of my old poetry but as my oldest daughter was home watching TV and chit-chatting with me, that didn't work out all that great. So instead, I hauled up a bunch of her clothes and helped her sort through them. (And eventually I'll haul them back downstairs...just not tonight.) I have the living room to myself right now. It's the closest I've gotten to having alone time all day. Too bad I'm too tired to really enjoy it. Of course, if I had a "distraction" around, I'd probably find myself not tired at all. Funny how that works.

They Eat Their Own/Like a Drug



I love this song...although the original lyrics are "But if you called I would tell you to fuck off" not "get lost."

Okay...apparently tonight I am only capable of doing ONE thing at a time...my adhd medication wore off awhile ago and I had about 4 1/2 hours of sleep last night. So I wasn't paying close attention to what I was doing the first time...and the second time I forgot to put the subject in...I refuse to try a third. But on the plus side, when I finally do get my tired behind in bed, I'm likely to sleep really well. Of course, unless I stay up a little too late, get that second wind, then I'll be paying for it tomorrow. (Which might happen; my youngest is over an hour past her bedtime cause we had to watch The Wolverine movie on tv and any excuse to procrastinate bed.)

I have alot of little nighties but I prefer sleeping in a tank and panties. (And besides that, I'm feeling unmotivated to mess around with anymore pics.)





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I had a pretty good weekend. Had my first mojito ever, and it was delicious. Learned how to add pics and youtube videos to my blog. Watched a hilarious movie with my youngest. Even had the house to myself for a couple hours earlier. And right now, I'm enjoying that everyone else is in bed and I'm not. Of course, if I had someone in my bed, I wouldn't be procrastinating my bedtime.

So much to do this week. The least favorite on my list (even above laundery) is the homework I have to do for my new therapist. So she can get a general idea of how I interact with others. I did read it. And decided I don't like it. But I guess I have to learn at some point to act like a girl and express my feelings.

Since I figured out how to blog pics, thought I'd see if I could share a video as well. This has always been one of my favorite songs but the video cracks me up.

Well, now that I've got this whole image-posting thing figured out...I'm going to share one what I look forward to in March...



Of course, it's much more fantastic to see it in person.