I don't really know how to describe my day, my thoughts are so muddled and unclear so this is the best I can do:

I got a call from my mom shortly after I blogged earlier today. My uncle (her elder sister's husband) is in the ICU and will be lucky to survive the next 24-48 hours. If he does he will be in a persistent vegetative state.

The phonecalls back and forth managed to glean this: he was on the phone with his step-daughter in GA, one minute talking, the next the phone went dead. My aunt found him on the kitchen floor in a pool of blood. He was helicoptered to the hospital and surgery was performed. They can't stop the bleeding in his brain. My aunt is catatonic. Her youngest daughter can't handle it all so she begged my parents to come. My cousin is stuck in GA till tomorrow, the soonest flight she could get out here. There is still a puddle of blood on the kitchen floor and my folks will be going to my aunt's to clean it up tonight or tomorrow so my aunt won't have to see it. We fear my aunt is edging towards a breakdown as this will mean the second husband she has lost.

I have been in a fog all day. We didn't go to my in-laws for dinner. I couldn't do it. My husband's folks came and picked up our son and my hubby stayed with me so I wouldn't be alone. I just couldn't deal with anything anymore and crawled into bed and fell asleep. I was woken up by my GF K. She and T had made us plates and came to make sure we had Thanksgiving dinner. She made me get out of bed and eat. They wanted to make sure we were doing ok. You can't ask for better friends.

So as it stands we will not be having our normal Thanksgiving with my family. We do it the day after turkey day so we don't have to go to 2 houses in 1 day. We will be heading to my mom's to pick up the turkey and stuff and I will be preparing it tomorrow. My heart isn't in it, but I need the routine of cooking; something to occupy my head so I don't start crying again. I don't know when my mom is coming home, she will stay as long as it takes so I will hold down the fort for her in the meantime. My dad is supposed to fly out to FL for business on Monday but is trying to push it out to a later date. It is all so up in the air.

I don't know what to think. I can't really think to be honest. It seems so fucking surreal. My head feels like it's filled with tapioca and I pick things up and then wonder why I have them in my hand. Nothing makes sense and I have such a headache. I don't think I will ever look at Thanksgiving the same again...

I guess with it being Thanksgiving I am in a reflective and pensive mood. I am happy yet sad, as I tend to be during the 'family' holidays. I have decided to make a list of some of the things that I am thankful for. It is not a complete list, but just what happens to be on my mind at this time.

I am thankful for:

My husband. Who puts up with my shit on a daily basis. Why he loves me as much as he does, I haven't a clue. I am by no means 'high maintenance' and actually tend to go out of my way to not ask for his help which frustrates him. I do tend to be highly stubborn, exceedingly opinionated, at times rigid, humorless and prone to being moody and as demanding of the people I love as I am of myself. I am a control freak and a perfectionist and am as annoying as hell but he loves me. He loves me when I am sad, mad, glad - he just loves me. I don't deserve him but I am thankful he chose me.

My son. My mini-me. He may look like his father but inside he is me. We are so alike at times we butt heads, but there isn't a day that goes by that I look at him and marvel that such a beautiful, loving, kind soul came out of me.

My parents. I love them more than they will ever know, despite the fact that spending time with them at times is as pleasurable as a root canal. I owe them so much and care for them so deeply yet I could never put it into words.

T&K. These are 2 very special people who have come into our lives and I can't describe how happy they make me. They are extensions of us and I cherish the time we spend with them. Not many people would understand or accept it, but I can live with that.

My zoo. All of my animals give me unconditional love on a daily basis. To them I am the center of their universe. I have laughed for them, cried for them, bled for them, mourned for them, won and lost for them, gone into debt for them. I would do it and continue to do it every day. They are a part of me and who I am.

My friends. I know a lot of people but rarely let many get so close to me. My friends are like my family and they know they can call on me at any time for anything. I would walk thru fire for them.

My health. Well not so much, as it hasn't been the best thing the past few years. It could be worse - of course it could and I know I am far better off than so many despite the laundry list of niggling health issues. I can walk, talk, see, hear, eat, drink, laugh, cry, make love. And there are many who cannot do those things, so yes I am thankful.

NN. Where else could I go that people would except me as I am? I am ridiculous, filthy-minded, potty-mouthed and butt-nekkid most of the time. You all are the best, the greatest, the sexiest and I adore you all.

This is all I can think of right now, but I am thankful for so much more. Please have a safe and happy day and be good to one another.

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Silversun Pickups "Lazy Eye"

Ok, so here is a silly one just as a preview. I have a very odd look in my face, wonder if you can guess what I was thinking about?

lol


"I am innocent, I swear!!!"

I haven't been around lately, just so busy - Calgon take me away....

Will be offline probably until after Thanksgiving weekend unless I can sneak away and blog somehow I will be up to my neck in friends & family so no pervy time for me. I have a bunch of new pics that we took this past weekend so they will be posted after the holiday; no time to do it now, solly.

Miss you all, my lovelies. For all my American friends - have a safe and happy Thanksgiving. For my non-US peeps - have a great 22, November lol.

See you all very soon....

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: The Smiths "Oscillate Wildly"

Been a rather busy few days, not been home much to blog and when I got home I did a lot of sleeping. We helped put on a party on Saturday night so spent most of Friday and Saturday dealing with that. It was a bunch of swingers but it was not a 'swinging' party, just a social thing. Of course there was no shortage of gropes to be had, can't avoid it with a houseful of pervs.

We stayed overnight at T & K's house (the party hosts) and spent most of Sunday hanging out and screwing around. Here is an amusing couple of pics of me trying on K's "stripper shoes." I swear I was 6 inches taller in these fuckers and could I walk? Not really. The only walking required was from the closet to the bed, in the guy's opinions lol. Don't mind my hair, it looks a bit messy - I won't tell you how it got that way; I will leave it up to your imaginations....

"Ok, you expect me to walk in these?...Riiiiight..."



"Made it to the bed, now what?"




Puurrs to all,


Currently listening to: Big Audio Dynamite "E=Mc2"

Wow, what a day! It was field trip day for the 3rd Grade at my son's school.

I was a class chaperone and the trip was a nature hike/Native American studies trip.

Imagine 30 excited 8 and 9 year olds, on a big noisy bus. It was bedlam. I had forgotten how loud a group of kids that size can be in a contained area. If I had had earplugs I would have used them. I did have my ipod so that managed to drown out some of the noise but by the time we got back to the school later in the afternoon my head was throbbing. Migraine city. I dropped my son off at my folks and I went home and lay down with some Tylenol and a blanket over my head so I could decompress for a couple hours. I should have taken the heavy-duty meds but then I would be passed out for the rest of the evening.

Now that our son is home and in bed I can take the serious drugs and go to bed and sleep this bitch off or I will wake up with it tomorrow. Just gotta do a couple chores and it will be off to bed for me. Maybe if I ask nicely my hubby will rub my neck and head for me while I doze off...

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Chevelle "Send The Pain Below"

I got my bellybutton pierced today!!!

It hurt pretty damn bad but it looks very cute....

What a busy past couple of days - I feel like a hamster on one of those wheels; running and getting nowhere fast.

Friday we had T & K (some swinger friends, see a few blogs below) and their kids over for dinner. It was just hanging out and "vanilla" as our kids were running around, but we hang out together all the time anyways. It isn't just about the sex. Hubby had started his special spaghetti sauce on Thursday and I continued cooking it on Friday and getting cats ready for a cat show on Saturday & Sunday.

We had a nice relaxing evening eating and watching tv while the kids played. Another friend stopped by to hang out for a bit as well and everyone went home around 1:00am. I still had stuff to do get ready for the show so there I was making chicken salad and baking brownies at 1am. Yeah I am crazy, I know lol. I finally got all that taken care of and the kitchen cleaned up and we went to bed and had a nice relaxing fuck. I was on my side and he was behind me and had my leg raised up. He just rocked into me, slowly. He came just a minute before I did and I was asleep by the time my head hit the pillow.

Saturday and Sunday I spent at the cat show and I did pretty well. Made a few points and got to spend time with my cat breeder friends. We had a potluck both days so there was lots of gossip and good food. By Sunday night I was beat though, and we when I got home from the show all I wanted was a hot shower and to lay down. My husband suggested we go out for dinner (what a sweetheart) and he suggested a place where the food is awesome and they have an amazing outdoor dining area. The night was so warm and the weather just perfect. We had a great dinner and enjoyed the night with all the other families. It was a great end to a hectic but satisfying weekend.

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: the hum of my hard drive

Bye bye October. Why is the time flying so fast???

Halloween has been put to bed and now we move on to the more uncomfortable 'family' gatherings of Thanksgiving and Christmas.

It's the thought of these holidays that start to set my teeth on edge and make me feel blue. My family doesn't seem to be able to get along for very long before unraveling into animosity and my husband's family is firmly rooted in la-la land and keeping up appearances. All sorts of long-simmering angst to be served alongside the cranberry sauce and the Christmas cookies & cocoa. This is not my happy time of the year, I can tell you that...

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: The hum of my hard drive

Did the Earth move for you, too?

It sure did for me.

We had an earthquake last night, and it was a real shaker. It lasted a long time and shook the hell out of our house. All of our kitchen cabinets flew open along with the door to my curio cabinet. Lots of stuff jostled but the only casualty was an artificial raven that fell and broke off it's foot. Well that and my nerves which were pretty well shot the rest of the night.

The cats were petrified with fear and so was our son. It took him forever to go to sleep. The epicenter was only a few miles from us so while it was only a magnitude 5.6, it we got it pretty good.

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Pixies "Velouria"