Another day closer to the husband coming home. I can't wait. I don't know how folks who's SO's are in the military or who have to be away from home a lot do it. It sucks. They have my utmost respect because they are a lot stronger than me. I fully admit I am a wuss and can't hack it on my own for more than a couple days.

I miss my husband in so many ways and not just his cock either. Don't get me wrong I miss his cock A LOT. I find my mind wandering here and there; remembering how his cock feels, how it tastes, how much of it I can cram down my throat, etc. It is very distracting. I need a fuck and the various toys are a poor substitute. Yes they get me off but then I still feel unsatisfied and then I get peevish. I need the real deal. But there is more to it then just a cock to pleasure me, there are a myriad of reasons I miss him. Who will reach things down from high shelves while he is gone? There is a lightbulb that went out and I can''t reach it without balancing very precariously on a chair. With my luck I would fall and break my neck. Who will open the jar of spaghetti sauce with the lid that seemed to have been tightened on with an impact wrench? Who will fetch me a roll of toilet paper when I look to my left and realise that the roll is nothing but a bit of cardboard with a teeny shred remaining and I have already sat down? Who will rub my back for me when it spasms? Who will wrap themselves around me to warm me up when I am cold at night?

Always having someone else around has made me somewhat helpless. Shameful, I know. I should buck up and be resourceful and stop whining but I have come to realise that I kind of like this kind of helplessness. It's like I am channeling my inner "Gone With The Wind" character; I see myself wringing my hands while exclaiming "What evah shall I do??" when I can't figure out how to make the DVD player work or determine which remote belongs to what (they all fucking look the SAME and why do we have so many???). Then a big man comes in and takes care of it for me. My hero. What irks is that I know I am more clever than this. I just have grown very complacent I guess. I have become a lazy girl


Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Bryan Ferry "Slave To Love"

Hey! I'm a blonde chick with a nice pussy, too!!

My nice pussy is missing my husband very much. I was so restless last night; tossing and turning and unable to get to sleep. I finally had to masturbate so I could relax enough to fall asleep. I rarely masturbate, it just doesn't cut it for me, but desperate times call for desperate measures so I have a feeling I will be doing quite a bit of self-service the next few days.

Damn horniness and traveling spouses *grumbles*

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Audioslave "Set It Off"

Hubby has gone to Georgia for a week.

I am not used to being alone

One of our neighbors has decided to learn to play the trombone!!!

It's sounds like an asthmatic elephant lives across the street!

Aren't I a lucky girl???

We had a great time at the party last night. My outfit went over quite well despite the fact that I could not bend over without the world seeing my ass nor sit without flashing the person across from me, my crotch. Of course with a bunch of swingers that is never really an issue. If I were to have been dusted for fingerprints you would probably have found at least 12 distinct sets of prints all over my body lol.

Our 'date' fell through, so the only person I ended up having sex with was my husband but that was fine by me. By the time we got back to our hotel room after hanging out after the dance and going to another room for a B-day party I was pretty much frozen stiff and dog tired. It was about 2:45am and I would not have been up for a 6 hour group session. Some 1 on 1 time with my hubby was all I needed. I was so cold that he had to defrost me before he could do anything though, I was blue from the cold. Skimpy outfits and cold weather do NOT mix. The heater was cranked up to 76 and he put me under the covers and we cuddled until I warmed up. It would have been bad otherwise - chattering teeth and BJ's do not really belong together do they?. We had a great fuck and I came 3 times before we finally conked out from exhaustion. I didn't even care that I was in a damp spot, I was too tired to care.

We got up early this morning as my husband had a doctors appointment for his hand. He had hurt it yesterday and it had swelled up pretty badly so we didn't get to do our usual post-party lay around in bed and screw for a couple hours prior to checking out. We had to get ready and go so we could make his appointment in time. We did get to enjoy part of the ritual by showering together. Our shower is very small at home so part of the fun of staying in hotels for us is the big showers. He washed my hair for me and scrubbed me all over and after we rinsed off I went down on my knees and sucked his cock. It was so warm and steamy and the hot water everywhere; very sensual. He ended up cumming in my mouth and on my face. It was easy clean up of course - I was already in the shower. How handy.

We got dressed and packed up and left and made it to the doctors on time. The doc says his hand isn't broken, just some soft tissue damage and some possible tendon strain. He got some pain killers and ice packs and we went on our way to go pick up our son at my folk's house. I am relieved he finally went to the doctor as my hubby is flying to Georgia tomorrow for business for a week and he needed to get that hand fixed prior to leaving. Hopefully he will listen to the doc and keep the ice on it to ease the swelling, but since I won't be there to keep an eye on him...

Anyhoo, gotta go and run to Costco and then pack my husband's suitcase. It's gonna be a lonely 5 nights for me. I am not used to sleeping alone

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: The hum of my hard drive

Don't you love it when you put on a coat or sweater that you haven't worn in months and you find money in the pocket? Doesn't that just make your day? Maybe I am easily amused, but it sure makes me smile.

Oh and it's fricking cold and raining btw, and we are going to a swingers party and I am gonna be freezing my ass off. I am wearing only a corset and scrap of material that can barely be called a skirt so I will probably suffer from hypothermia but I shall look damn sexy doing it.

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: The sound of the rain on the windows

It feels like I am in the eye of a hurricane.

A lot of bad juju going on with various friends and relatives, it's like an epidemic!! I am afraid to open an IM or answer the phone. I am afraid it will be more bad news. I can't fix any of it, either; just have to sit helplessly on the sidelines and watch it all implode. Why is this happening? And to so many around me? I just want everything and everyone to be ok.



Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: The hum of my hard drive

Song To The Siren



On the floating, shapeless oceans
I did all my best to smile
til your singing eyes and fingers
drew me loving into your eyes.

And you sang "Sail to me, sail to me;
Let me enfold you."

Here I am, here I am waiting to hold you.
Did I dream you dreamed about me?
Were you here when I was full sail?

Now my foolish boat is leaning, broken love lost on your rocks.
For you sang, "Touch me not, touch me not, come back tomorrow."
Oh my heart, oh my heart shies from the sorrow.
I'm as puzzled as a newborn child.
I'm as riddled as the tide.
Should I stand amid the breakers?
Or shall I lie with death my bride?

Hear me sing: "Swim to me, swim to me, let me enfold you."
"Here I am. Here I am, waiting to hold you."


by This Mortal Coil

We are having a bit of a cold snap here; the wind is up and the clouds are rolling in, possible thunder showers later today. I guess Summer is done and Fall has come on in. Time to pack up all the cute little shorts and tops and contemplate the bulky sweaters. Bugger.

I just got back from checking on the birds and collecting eggs. So far only 4 when there is usually double that. I observed that several of 'The Girls' are dropping feathers left and right and some look downright sorry looking. What higher power decided that chickens should be mostly naked during the cold portions of the year? I feel bad for them, looking all moult-y and tore up. This means egg production will taper off since they go out of lay during moult and thru the coldest parts of Winter. It is a bummer since I prefer to use our own eggs for baking but will have to do with purchased eggs for the bulk of my holiday baking.

My back is doing a little better today. I went to the gym and did the treadmill but avoided my usual upper-body routine. It was tempting but I am not completely daft. I would have fucked myself utterly had I done those weights today. Maybe in a couple days I can start back with my full routine; just reduce the lbs by 10 or 20 till I am fully operational. Not having full range of motion or being able to do my normal day-to-day stuff is highly frustrating for me. The lack of sex is also becoming annoying. I am still too ouchy in the back for anything full-on and even doggy isn't comfortable. It still hurts my back. I did get a nice licking from my husband last night - sitting up! I was in his desk chair; a big high-backed padded thing, and he put my legs on his shoulders and the chair was tilted ever so. It was a slightly awkward position but it kept my back straight and it didn't spasm up when I came. Isn't it amazing the lengths one will go for an orgasm?


Puurrs to all,


Currently listening to: Lush "For Love"