It's a WAYLAND night, for me again...

Got to say I need to say hi to those guys again.... but, I KNOw they didn't make enough last time around, to make a trip here, worth their time and road trip. Sad, really. I admire these talented musicians. Good guys, too.



Listen to them, my friends... how I love the messages these smiling sweet and playful men write, sing, play and share with the world around them. And, if you ever get to meet them. Tell them a woman in Utah steered you their way... There are TWO women in Utah, by the name of Dawn that adore them... The other one travels the US just to see them. I don't. I can't afford it. But I'd love to get to say hello, buy a Tshirt and hug them again. Maybe one day.



See why I love them?


They remind me to hope. Their songs rekindle the light of it inside of me... I need it.

Let the darkness slowly fall apart...


listen and feel light shining from inside of you, too...

confessions...
I've got one or two or half a dozen that I could share on here... truthfully, they'd be fitting.

But well, they're mine to just hide and stew over... and maybe experience again.

Experiences... new, old mixed up, stirred up. and often confusing, both during, and afterwards.

But I'll say this... I'm experiencing things that most people fantasize about once in a while... USUALLY for ME, it's just when I'm stirred up and heated to the boiling point... but still... Life has a way of making me feel upside down and dizzy from time to time.


Good thing I enjoy a roller coaster ride once in a while.


WARNING NOTICE HERE>>> BE AWARE OF HORNY WOMAN GOING ABSOLUTELY WONKY...

WALK AWAY fast, to avoid being decked ravaged and cum all over your face or naughty bits.

I need a new vibrator or two.. Uh huh... oh yeah, I sure DO. And soon!!!

Oh well... who knows what I might get as a birthday present from a stranger....
yeah, riiiighhht.

Smiles... no worries.

I'm DEFINITELY not expecting that.

lazy day after a long night of dreaming and of lusty play...

ahh well,

now, it is past time for a shower, lather bubble me and steamy bathroom... but it's all still needed. Just means a shorter quicker version of what is needed to be out in public places.

apparently my pussy lips really are in need of shaving *sigh* I really, REALLY need some pointers on how to get that nice and smooth.

Oh well...

smiles... on the inside, and the outside...

spending time with my daughter, talking about the future, and about her plans and mine, life, travel, comfort, clothes.. toys, too, even...

I wanted to share the heat and glow of the fire that was created at The Burn last month.

to be honest, a great deal more happened that intriguing night... not sure what other than the pyre lit fires in my mind.

I am changing.. recognizing potential.. both good and otherwise... letting go of people and things. Choices are good.

Home alone... doing chores, resting, relaxing... it's kind of nice, you know?

The long hours of our overtime days, turned out to not be enough to make a dent in what I'd hoped to earn, but hey... I get a few extra hours on the next pay check.

I hear the little parakeets in my daughter's room chittering and seeming to be in a pleasant mood.

My little pineapple(hybrid)green-cheeked conure, Baby, needs time with her Old Mom, before young mommy comes home, from her dental appointment and time with her father and his family. It doesn't seem so long ago that I was wondering HOW to end the marriage... It was two years ago and a bit back that the divorce was finalized.
So much has changed.

My time is filled less with some things and more with others. Work, contemplation... more work... more effective sleep.

It's kind of nice to be able to get actual rest now and then.

Tomorrow, no overtime... Just an average phone calls day for me...

My birthday was going to be me in bed, or working on my home and going through boxes, to weed out what is not really needed or used.But it'll be spent with friends and family who called and insisted they wanted to share in my day off from work. It'll also be my sweet daughter's first day of training for her future job.

there are days, when I know why I'm here, why I'm alive... simply to live, to breathe, to feel the sunlight warming my skin.. to feel the rains wet it, and to feel the joy of the world we get to experience. Life.

I heard some friends sing this as a cover...

yeah, another shinedown song.. but at least this one's kinda upbeat, and... well, I just found it hidden in my pile of songs.

this song... there are times that I recall conversations with someone I held dear... both of us, seeing the other... so changed, so lost and now, so gray and distant... no longer filled with even half the light and joy we each once glowed with. That was what had attracted us to one another... as friends, and other things... now, distanced and lost confused, still reaching yet never touching never finding in each other what once was.... living through the shadow of the ghost... sad

sad, but true... and, yet.. maybe we can find that within ourselves one day, again... and keep it brightly burning... maybe.