looking down and through the waterfall...

the waters up in these glorious Wasatch mountains... cascading down the canyons.. so clear and crystalline... I love to capture them from many angles... anyway, I loved this as just one of many many of the shots I took this year.

sharing some more of my nature photos.. these are from this May.







I don't know if you can tell... but I love water... light, and life... the water rejuvenates my soul on so many levels when I capture it in this way.. and in action, motion live and full of power and energy...

I miss it, crave it need it... nods, even more than sex...
I know, right?

I wonder...
what to do next...
mind me going back on my word?

I realize that hiding my life and truths from this place.. my friends here... I just...
I guess...
I just need to unleash it somewhere...
somehow...
and not have it tear me up in public...
at work
or other places...

do you mind being my support group?

the arms that hold me while I'm full of anxiety again...
watching those I love...
worrying over this and that...
will you listen hmmm, I mean... read my thoughts and let me cry here?
can I go back on my words?

kisses to lips and tongue... wet mated tips entwine... hunger desire lusty needing. Mmmmmm definitely could get used to this...

exploring the boundaries that hold us back. And then... he's acting awkward again... as if we're back to the beginning?. and, I remind myself that this time, it's new... because it's not play and tease, it's significant... it's real... it's impacting. He's now vulnerable.

I like that. I get up, hug him and say I need to get myself clean for the day.. he reaches for me and says, but it's time for breakfast... I want to eat you... I smile, kiss him and say "I wish, but it's that time of the month."
Ohhhh, he sighs and lets go.
How I wish he'd been ready just days before... to try that again... and then I smile as I rinse the shampoo off my body... there'll be time for that not long from now... maybe he'll risk asking... or just dive on in, the next time he wants to taste my sweet wet pussy.

I focus on my shower.... he walks into the bathroom clears his throat and opens the curtain as I'm shaving my thigh...
hmmm, oh my....
a naked man is stepping into the confined amount of room with me... and I vibrate with joy to see him focus on just being in there... with me... naked, wet... he lathers himself up... still so amazingly unsure... I wonder at that fact... amazed that he seems insecure about himself and his body... his body... Mmmmm mmmm mmmm

and so... I run my hands over him again... licking lips... soaping lathering down to his cock... and balls, stroking him and washing him clean... I smile and run my fingers through his chest hair, matted with residual soap... and then... I lean over and gently, I take him into my mouth.. sliding him in deeply.. relishing his wet clean flavor....
delight.

being kissed on the cheek and neck
eyes smiling gently down on me... as he pulled back...

I'm looking forward to next time.
Me too. I miss you. I loved spending time alone with you.
Yes. Call me tonight?
nodding... of course. My eyes sparkle... and we hug again.

all I know is.. life is a trial, but it's also a rich opportunity for learning,
for second chances...
for change, and hope.
and, for desire shared between two people who are passionate, sexually hungry, attracted to one another... and good friends...
I'm dreaming of a man who'll stay by my side... of a man who values what he has, in me, and who treasures me, for me...

tasting joy and love and lust in one long kiss... feeling needed, wanted and desired in one joyous hug. One determined choice by two... to not hold back our desire, longing, and need... and, to not hold back our admissions, truths.. our feelings, hopes wishes... dreams.

Longing for that in a relationship... feeling it growing possible, real...
for now.. carnal, loving, hungry... gentle.... powerful... it's mine... and I'm eager to dream again.

hmmmm, snuggling up to a naked man is good for a woman's soul. wouldn't you agree?

and being naked next to him... mmmm mmmm mmmmmmm, even better. Touch, slide legs over one another... kisses shared and fingertips teasing one another, with tickles, caresses and fondles.... MMmmmmm

perfect way to spend a lazy winter morning.

Still exploring the newness of change to our friendship.
Kisses continued, deep, and hungry... tasting, teasing, hungry and expressing our attraction, desire, want and need.

Wondering at the sweetness mixed with carnality, sweet hot desire pulling at my bellybutton... hunger in his kisses. and lust in his touch.

reveling again in sensual decadence... and so, it begins again...

kissing me deeply before we left the car... eyes glittering and finger tracing a line down towards one hard nipple... he leans in to pull me closer... pressed against his body... my breast soft, and yielding yet nipples dig into him... fingers lift my chin up as he lowers his lips to mine again... huskily whispering... this was wonderful... so different than our last time...
smiling up into his eyes, I nod and say, "yes"

kisses linger and become hungry... and then he releases me, takes my key and twists the doorknob opening the door, we walk into my empty apartment... alone.

my breathing quickens, heart seems to pound within my ribcage... recalling our last time together.. I am eager to try, to trust, and experience.... more

lusty, experiences, for sure... but there's something new there... something sweet, rich, deep...

more kisses, his fingers run through my hair... pulling it back from my neck... kissing licking, eyes growing darker with desire... the ache is showing in my body, the scent of my need fills the air...

eyes watch me more intently than I've felt... for... a long time... he asks if he can stay the night and just go from here, to work in the early hours of morning... slides his hand over mine... Yes, I want it...

again... desire.... again, heat, and passion play... kisses searing my lips.. he sucks on my upper lip.. reminders of the past time he's sucked nibbled and kissed my clit and pussy... mmmmm, anticipation... sensual delight. nibbling in return, and then being guided to the bed.... tall, thick.. soft, and he lays me down.. running his hands up my thighs he sighs out low... admiration sparkles in his eyes.... pleasure wells within me, knowing he enjoys the sight he sees.

pulling my clinging jeans down off my hips... and off my body, revealing the black lace of the top of my thong.. and the silken bit of fabric barely covering my slit... he can see it is already soaked with my desire filled juices... then he motions for me to pull my blouse over my head... as he removes his jeans, I slip it off, and toss it over the side of the bed, discarded somewhere out of my view... braless... my round breasts are reveals, for him to relish.. ahh, and oh, how he does.... suckling, kissing licking and nipping each one... pulling off his shirt, too.. he tosses his with a wink and lays down in one move, beside me.... hungrily kissing then grazing my flesh with his fingernails, awakening more nerve endings with each movement... then... turning me around he angles over me... licking tickling sucking and lathing begin again... and then. raising one leg over his shoulder, and then the other... he slides his thick long and hard cock over my lips... and slips within my thick velvety folds... slowly at first... shifting his weight and angling himself deeper, he rises above me, filled with lusty heat and desire to please me... pumping, twisting, shifting making love and then fucking madly once beyond the point of return... moans, grunts and whispered comments, and expressions of pleasure, desire and appreciation pass his lips, and mine... gentle, rough, craving, aching.... and then... sweet release
lusty groans as he throbs and explodes deep within me, only after he's felt my pussy's tight walls grasping, throbbing, pulsing multiple times.. eruption flowing filling me to overflowing.... and, then... tenderly embracing and caressing... together, touching, sharing the lusty joy of sexual delight... euphoria again...

more autumn photos from the other weekend...



autumn leaves scattered over the forest floor...


the bright glory of light upon the waters, laughing as it leaps over the rocks.. I'm in love with water.



light and shadow casting patterns over the creek



such light and life...

and then.... this one... it's beautiful to me...
so perfect.

can anyone make me feel whole again? if so.. how I want him to come and find me...

shaking head...

ahh well...